Four years ago today I was sick…quite sick. And I was at the hospital for major colon surgery. That was a turning point in my life. But I had a long road ahead of me. I never, ever want to go through something like that again, but I am so thankful for the changes it brought to my life. It’s hard for me now to remember what my life was like before surgery. I wasn’t actually living. It is also hard to believe it’s been four years!

Three years ago I was almost 9 weeks pregnant with my first miracle baby that I wasn’t sure I’d ever have. But God is good. And he blessed us beyond belief.

Two years ago I was enjoying life with a busy baby, cutting her first teeth and learning to roll over, while I was trying to figure out what motherhood is all about 🙂

One year ago I was just starting out on my journey to deal with my OCD and a few days away from starting medications for our first attempt at trying for baby #2. We were hopeful and excited since it had worked the first time. Little did we know the journey we’d be on for the next year. And although it was extremely tough, we are thankful for everything God taught us and how he helped us grow in our faith.

Today I am rejoicing that we saw one perfect little heartbeat on our ultrasound yesterday. Despite our worries and fears God has given us just what we need. And we are so excited to welcome this little one into our lives next spring. God is good!!

Sometimes we wish we could know what the future holds. We are always waiting for something, wondering how something will turn out, etc. And being a planner that is very true for me. But I am thankful I do not know God’s plans. If anyone had told me four years ago what was in store I’m not sure what I would have thought. But I’m glad God knows all the details and knows just what I need. Even if the journey is long and difficult he is still in control and loves me more than I can fathom. And his plans are perfect. He’s using every little trial to make me the woman he wants me to be.

I am rejoicing today and looking forward to what God has planned for the next four years. It may not be what I have planned. It might be tough. But I know it will be for God’s glory. My prayer is that God will use me, my story, my struggles for his glory. That I may be a blessing to others and share what God has taught me. That God will open doors, challenge me and use me.