I’m starting to realize it’s just not worth it. The momentary pleasure of eating something made with wheat is just not worth the pain and suffereing that comes after. Over the last couple months I’ve been making big steps towards becoming “mostly” grain free. But this month I started out a little more strict. And I think it was what I needed to shed some light on the next steps in my journey towards healing my gut. I had 2 days in a row of eating completely grain free. And I was feeling quite good. Then Wednesday I had sourdough muffins in the morning and burritos on whole wheat tortillas in the evening. This was a great experiment and told me a lot. I know my body well enough by now to know that foods usually impact me about 24 hours after I eat them (give or take). So if I’m not feeling well I can usually have a pretty good idea of at least what meal the offender came from. Yesterday was a great example. I felt great in the morning. Which means the sourdough muffins didn’t seem to cause much harm (they were made only with sourdough and sprouted wheat flour). But in the afternoon…it hit. The intestinal distress. And I knew right away it was the whole wheat tortillas (boughten) I had eaten the evening before. And it was like a light went on. I’ve gone back and forth for a long time about trying to eat completley gluten free or grain free. But I never go all in. But yesterday it just clicked. I saw how good I could feel. And how bad I could feel just from one meal with wheat. And I thought it’s just not worth it.
The crazy thing is that as usual I see God’s perfect timing. I am 9 weeks away from having baby #2. And it weighs heavy on my mind often about how I am going to handle 2 kids while not feeling well so often. But I had a glimpse of how I could feel earlier in the week. And it just seemed like God was clearning things up this week about what direction to take…just in time.
I don’t know for sure how far I’ll need to take this. But I am thankful to at least have a starting point and some direction. So I’m going to do a montly goal update now instead of waiting until April. My plan for this month is to start with only eating wheat that is soaked, sprouted or sourdough. And aside from that eat gluten free (and oat and potato free). I know it won’t be easy, but I’m anxious to see how much it helps. I’m sure I will have slip ups, but hopefully not many. I will make one exception to have a piece of my birthday cake 🙂 Depending on how I do I may go totally gluten free next month. And depending on how that goes I may try totally grain free at some point. And down the road I think I want to go even farther and do GAPS. But for now this is where I’m starting. I hope it will be a big help. I feel very good about this decision and am excited to see how I feel. God has given me a sense of peace about this path. All in his perfect time 🙂
I’ll have to make more of an effort this month to make sprouted flour. And I’ll have to start experimenting with recipes using sprouted flour. See how I handle it. One step at a time. Odd to say, but I was actually quite thankful for a bad day yesterday since it made things seem so clear. But hopefully the bad days will be fewer and fewer 🙂 I just wish the recovery period from eating wheat didn’t last so long. As I said before, it’s just not worth it. A few bites of food for a couple days of misery. No thanks.